The one tv show I’m watching now

For me to juggle a tv show at this stage of my life is….

Well, let’s just say that it just better be really really darn captivating 

Sometimes an escape is nice, we all need to escape the “ harsh “ realities of our lives.

 But I don’t like escape. Not when it involves me getting out of touch of my own reality and then returning to it the same way I left it. 

To some it can be refreshing. Gives you the space, time and clarity to return to a daunting task or life with a pair of fresh eyes and self. 

To others it takes them away from their reality for a glimpse, just to have them return worse than they were because they deviated away from their reality and now they’ve been dug deeper because instead of working on getting out, they were elsewhere. The return to the hole now seems a little foreign. And the act of digging seems a little foreign too,  and peculiar. I fall under this category 

If I were to escape, it’s only because I want to come back stronger, clearer and hungrier. 

The best escapes for me are those that make me a better person as a whole. 

Exercise, writing, creating , eating of course and resting. But anything done mindlessly really makes me feel worse about myself, my state and not a very good human being.

I always try and choose wisely. I fail a lot of the times but the will is ALWAYS there. That’s what matters. Is my trying and trying until I make it. Which is till death 💀 

One of my current escapes is the tv show “Billions”

I eagerly wait the next episode for 7 days after each episode and boy am I glad that the whole season isn’t released at once. I sure do love the suspense, the cliff hangers and appreciate that this may one day be gone given our binge generation. 

I’ve been watching it since season 1 and every year ( so far seasons 3 ) it just keeps getting better, smarter, faster and deeper.  After I’m done with an episode I feel sharper, inspired and ready to do what it takes. 

In short, here’s what it’s about 

Wealth, influence and corruption collide in this drama set in New York. Shrewd U.S. Attorney Chuck Rhoades is embroiled in a high-stakes game of predator vs. prey with Bobby Axelrod, an ambitious hedge-fund king. To date, Rhoades has never lost an insider trading case — he’s 81-0 — but when criminal evidence turns up against Axelrod, he proceeds cautiously in building the case against Axelrod, who employs Rhoades’ wife, psychiatrist Wendy, as a performance coach for his company. Wendy, who has been in her position longer than Chuck has been in his, refuses to give up her career for her husband’s legal crusade against Axelrod. Both men use their intelligence, power and influence to outmaneuver the other in this battle over billions.

Just a summary 👆🏻

But so much drama, passion, greed, ego, smart dialogue, great performances and beautiful cinematography.

A must see. An escape to a possibly better you. 

Over and out 

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The Kevin hart book review + what I learnt

As soon as I saw that book on the shelf I grabbed it.

I didn’t think twice. I’m not a Kevin Hart fan by the way.

I don’t necessarily hate or dislike him but he’s a big time comedian.

More importantly a stand up comedian. That was my only sell and I bought it.

To be a stand up comedian, you really got to know how to tell a story. You really need to know how to move an audience, you really got to know how to say it well, clear and concise.

That’s something I wanted to know how is done.

Apart from the book being hilarious from the get go. Kevin is brutally honest and really explains his journey from humble beginnings and teaches you a lot of important life lessons along the way.

If you’re someone who likes comedy, enjoys a good memoir and a great underdog story. Then pick this book up

Now here’s what I learnt, I’ll write it in my points:

  1. Turn tragedy into comedy : Kevin is a grand success because turned his negatives and hardships into comedy. Boom. Everyone could relate and he didn’t have to hide anymore.
  2. We choose our chapters and it determines our next one too:  Comedy or tragedy, fairy tale or horror story, rags to riches or riches to rags.
  3. Don’t ever be bullied: unless it involves your pride. 
  4. Having a structured schedule: This will serve me the most, just look at where he and the most successful people in the world are.
  5. Have kids always busy : This will serve our kids in the future a lot. I wish I didn’t spend my summer holidays sitting around doing…. oh wait, I was studying for re-exams. Never mind
  6. Don’t wait for certainty : If you wait for certainty, you will spend your whole life standing still. And if you stay discouraged and give up when things get rough, you will miss on your best possible destiny. So the secret is to be excited about what is in your power to control, be excepting of what’s not in your power to control, and then move certainty into an uncertain future. You don’t have to know. You don’t have to understand. You just have to trust. There is a flow to life, and all you have to do is make the decision to follow that current even if it seems to be carrying your way from everyone around

God, typing all of this down made me wanna go for a second read.

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It’s hard

I just need to write something.

Just have to get my fingers typing or else all fails.

No excuses. I just have to get it done or else……….

I don’t even know if this will benefit anyone. I may not even post it. Will see

When you commit to something, please do not make excuses.

It’s hard. It’s hard I get it.

But what kind of life quality do we want in the end?

It’s happening

I was always a little curious about how we were meant to meet.

But it happened anyways. We met, we came, and we conquered each other.

Friends, family and acquaintances.

We were passed on to each other like a pair of warm socks that just came out of the drier or were left to dry at 12 pm in June on the Island of Bahrain.

Whatever happened was meant to be, good or bad.

You may think you had a role in this then I say good on you, build up that self confidence and make things happens.

Others may say I have no control over who and how I met people. Good on you, be like water. Adapt, let go and enjoy the shape of the container you will be put in.

In the end. What’s meant to happen will happen.

Make it happen or don’t.

It’s happening

Little Jimmy

Little Jimmy never had an education.

He went to school, had friends and was always surrounded with people. He later went to community college. His parents and friends decide it’s important to have a certificate in something to make him ” stand out “.

Little did he know that the country was flooded with training certificates. He continued anyways. He cheated in his exams and went along with life. After graduation he wanted to buy a new car. The only way for that to happen was a job.

He applied everywhere but didn’t have any idea what and where to apply to ?

After 2 months of job hunting which felt like an eternity to him, family and friends. His uncle got him a job at a warehouse. He hated it. He hated every minute of it. He didn’t belong in a warehouse. He belonged in an office. With a secretary. And an espresso machine, and not those cheap ones, but the full on fancy ones.

You see, all Jimmy had was his community. All his community had were each other. No one ever had an education. All they had was a bubble of negativity, wining and blaming.

Jimmy was pretty much doomed of life.

Don’t let jimmy be doomed. Get educated, get out of society’s bubble and start listening more.

THE END

Embracing uncertainty

Most days I feel uncertain about the foreseeable future.

Most days I just try and not ponder and stay focused.

I’m embracing the uncertainty because literally anything is possible. I’m curious. As long as I’m doing and building momentum then it’s all good.

Keep doing happy things. Things that make you happy.

Don’t mind others.

A quote to live by: “Those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind”

The burger joint

Recently a new burger joint opened up in our little island ( Like we needed more )

I’m not fond of burgers. Not fond of any kind of burgers. But I do have the occasional one. A friend of mine was a big fan and so I was inclined to go. But deep inside a little bit excited. I hadn’t had a burger in a long time.

After eating it I felt…unhappy. Empty inside but full. Full with food but this time I felt like my soul was lacking nourishment. It was such a deep emotion. I could not comprehend it .

What are we doing? What am I doing?

This isn’t me anymore.

I need some fresh tomatoes, blueberries, sliced cucumbers and If I really want to got heavy, a plate of hummus.

I almost went back home to shame.

I’m done with that life.

Nourishment and food that hit the soul. Or at least food that doesn’t damage it.

No more. No more. No more.

Life, please go slower 

Dear life, 

Last night I write a post about our prayers being answered. It was basically a post about “ more “

I felt so pumped, inspired and full of life.

Then today I was looking at a picture of my daughter I took after a kids disco event. 

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I almost cried.

At night I’m mostly more vulnerable. Emotional. And some times over emotional 

I looked at the picture. I don’t want this to end. I don’t my baby girl to leave me. To go to school, to have her thoughts, ideas and hate me. 

I want her just the way she is. Life is good.

I don’t want anything more at this moment. I don’t. I rarely feel this content. I like it. I’m usually a hungry guy. Hungry for more. Food, life, adventure, you name it. 

But for now I’m emerged in pure content. 

Thank you. 

I know I haven’t give enough. I know I’m not worthy of this but I’ll take it. 

These are pure 2 in the morning emotions talking right now.

You will probably read this at a better state of mind. But I truly don’t think you’ll be in a better one. I don’t 

For I am on cloud 9 right now, and there’s nothing I’d give for it

The answer to your prayers

” Here’s what you’re looking for he yelled. But you don’t want to look inside ”

But why?

” It’s because cannot and will not comprehend it ”

I’m a big boy, I can handle it.

” Here then ”

I take a look at it and it’s a folded piece of paper. I unfold it as if I’m unfolding an origami, and in that origami I feel like I’ll be solving a mystery. A crime possibly.

And there were 4 words in it.

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It was written in a scribbly manner.

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I didn’t get it. I didn’t even know what it meant.

It took me years to realise that what was in that piece of paper was the answers we are looking for, what I was looking for.

More, is the answer to everything we desire, love and care for.

If I want more love, I should give more love.

If I want to write a book, I should write more.

If I want to make a movie, I should create more, learn more and read more.

If I want more spirituality, I should pray more.

Fitness? Work out more.

You get what I’m trying to say.

Pour your heart out to what it desires.

God, family, friends, work, mind and body

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That’s your answer

Oh but I wanna be a ……

What are you doing now?

Wanna build a nail polish more. Learn everything there is to know polish.

Brands, pricing, market, you name it.

And the same goes for absolutely anything.

It only took me 28 years to truly realise what it meant.

Now excuse my while I go do MORE of what excites me.

It’s the price I pay.

Only if my heart truly desires it. If not, it will endure.

So choose wisely.