I have abandoned

Ok fine, I’m guilty as charged. I have cheated.

But it all happened organically. I never meant to. I feel so dirty writing this. It’s like coming back to a person you have abandoned letting go of them at their weakest just to come back realizing it was you who needed them all along.

Before you, my fellow reader get carried away. I’m talking about my lovely lovely blog. The blog that has really helped me at desperate times. It has been there for me whenever I’ve needed. What more could I have asked for? I mean really? But we tend to take those things/people for granted most. Unfortunately. Until its too late. Fortunate for me, I returned before its too late. I’m back and I feel like I have been forgiven. How can I tell? Let me tell you how. My fingers are razor sharp, the words are flowing out like butter.

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Which means that I have my groove back and I’m loving it

 

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It feels so good to be writing like this again. And I don’t ever want to abandon it again, not for this long at least. It’s been like..3-4 days? . Still. It feels like i’ve been gone a lifetime.

So where have I been?

Well, the world of vlogging has taken me by the horns. I’m in love again. But it isn’t fair to say in love again because I’ve always been in love. The right phrase would be ” in love with more”. We are capable of so much more. Why do we limit ourselves? let’s love and spray it all over the place. I love making youtube videos just as much as I love writing. They are both very different and dear to my heart.

They both bring in different sides of me. And that’s who we are. Different people to different situations and circumstances.  But they both definitely have one thing in common> They have my full attention. They squeeze the creativity out of me. They make me do/write things I thought I wasn’t able to. I learn a lot everyday from these two disciplines and I totally love it. Thank you Blog. Thank you Youtube.

I realize now that I really have a passion for film making. And I love making daily films. As I write this I feel like my head is spinning. I’m sitting in a dark room and everything around me is spinning but me and my laptop. Now that’s pretty wicked.

I want to continue writing and I will do my best to make enough time for it. But for now my heart goes hand in hand with you ( the blog) and Youtube. We shall see who remains standing last.

Hopefully nobody falls. Until I do

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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My new passion

I’m hooked again. It’s like love at first sight. You know that feeling where you buy a new toy. Well let me put it in adult form a little bit. You buy a brand new laptop and you come home, unbox it and just can’t sleep till the sun comes up and then it’s time for work. But you don’t really regret staying up cause you now the ins and outs of your new gadget.

That’s the high I’m at right now.

I’m always and I mean always looking for new ways ideas and ways to feel mesmerized. I need something to just grab my attention and keep me fixated all day about it. That’s what this blog did to me and still does. It got  me all fiery about writing something new everyday almost and I have stuck to it until it becomes a habit. At days I write great stuff and at days some ok and maybe horrible posts. But I WRITE!! And this has taught me so much and I mean so much.

I was stuck in a rut and was always feeling beat down because I would always pursue whatever I was doing with such brutality and I’d burn out. I’d come back yes but I wasn’t as enthusiastic as I started. But now I happen to be enthusiastic about almost everything I’m pursuing at an equal rate.

Some people say that in order to be good at something then you must only do that one thing bla bla bla. If it isn’t working of you then please don’t listen to them. We are Human beings and we can multi task to a certain extent, and we all have different capabilities.  So use your God given abilities and do what you want. You do not and I repeat DO NOT have to do one thing only to be good at it.

I was always very serious about sports and would train very seriously and would rarely do group training due to being focused and what not. When I got married, become a respectable member teacher ( LOL) and became head of a family. I just couldn’t do sports the way I did anymore. I just couldn’t. My performance really suffered and I suffered along side it. I wasn’t doing much else with my life apart from whatever else everyone was doing. It sucked. At least for me it did.

As soon as I changed that mindset I now now feel a 100% better. ok fine 70. But that’s a drastic change. Imagine 70% increase in happiness and productivity. All my goals are now aligned together, even though I’m  focusing on various things, but they’re aligned under one vision. I wish I had a name for it. But here’s how I see it. Health, community, sharing, producing, humor, art, and being politically incorrect.

It’s YOUTUBE. I can’t believe I had to to write 450 words to tell you that. I’m now pursuing a new hobby where I share my insights, day to day activities, tips, recipes, nonsense on my Youtube challenge.

Join me for a laugh,a new idea, enlightenment and maybe some inspiration.

Here I am